Is it not obvious that ive been struggling to stay consistent with my weightloss journey? If you've been following me for the past 10 months I started off pretty strong last August...working out on average 3-4x a week. Life got in the way, and i had excuses to push my workout sessions to the way way side.

Today, im feeling very stopped up. My stomach is protruding out and i just feel very bloated. I am still proud of myself for what I have been able to accomplish and i accept my failure that i have been lazy and let a lot of my hard work go down the drain. i hope i can remember today and how today feels like.

hopefully remembering how in despair i am today can help me to stay consistent and see my weightloss goals through to the end. I know i am good at starting out strong, but finishing is another obstacle all on its own.

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i did 60min of Core Fusion Thighs and Glutes - it felt uncomfortable with all of my back fat during the "pretzel" workout. also my belly just felt uncomfortable and just plain old out of shape. this was a great workout to start with as it didn't push me too much past discomfort, but i was able to get up and get my body moving. working out always gives me a boost of energy after and the will to want to be bettter. so i'll take it. 


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I had the NAKED juice berry veggie after my workout. This is really good stuff. 


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Back Again

And again and again...

Wednesday, March 28th 25min of Plyo X - hard as fuck. so out of shape since the last fitness regiment i was on. But its time to get back on. no reason to let anyone guilt me into why i'm working out. i'm doing it again!

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Monday, 11.28 - 60min Core Fusion Open: I took Ms. Kat Steers class. She is a former rockette and a lot of her moves were very unique. I sweated a lot in this class, however I felt like I got through it well enough and the hour flew by. I almost feel like I could sneak in another workout today if I had the time. Today I am feeling good as i am starting off the week well with a workout. I've got the upcoming show to keep me motivated. I had to do some shopping today and that as usual was still a bit of a bummer. As I found out with the workouts i've been doing, I haven't gone down a dress size. It's still hard for me to fit a 14! I think about the pictures that I took this summer and I get down cause I don't like them and I just feel like i look so fat. Because then it was still hard for me to fit a 14, I am battling with the thoughts that all of these workouts have done nothing. I'm battling with it, because I know deep down that I feel stronger and I can feel that my body shape is transforming. But most people celebrate weight-loss with a drop on the scale or being able to fit into a size smaller--> none of which I can do at the moment. But, I will fight to see that what i've been able to do these past few months is a true accomplishment. And its a true prophecy on what i'll be able to accomplish in the next few months. I'm going to keep my head up high and keep adding on the notches of workouts. With more focus on my diet, I know i'll get even better results.

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Monday, November 7th - 60min of Kenpox - BACK ON TRACK.

Friday, November 11th - 50min of CF dvd thighs and glutes - work it. I am still in this game. i'm not going to let go of my dreams. Its been a rough 2 weeks, but i've still got my eyes on the prize. I have one more day to get in 3 workouts. November 15th is my internal "artist bootcamp" check-in. I'll finally do a weigh-in then.

Saturday, November 12 - 15min of Ab Ripper X - got in 15min worth of a great ab exercise!

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Monday, November 21 - 15min Ab Ripper X and 10min of YogaX - you gotta get it in where you can fit it in! Since i'm pushing my self to get back into gear the only thing i told myself today with this work out is to show up... do what you can and breathe.

Friday, November 25 - 60min Core Fusion Open Class - this was a great class. although I can't help to call myself out for not getting my workouts in. I just dred the pain! But no pain no gain. What is most apparent to me is when I do work out on a regular basis, I have a clearer confident mindset. When I lose out on my workouts I can def feel insecurities coming back. I experienced this about a month ago when I slowed down on my workouts then and i'm feeling it now. Its all about the journey and finding my pace and consistency..I just want to get back on track and move forward.

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The last week of Oct, I had a week and a half hiatus of working out.

And i have been going through a lot with the family, including a recent death. Tragedies that are unexpected can really throw you off. So I decided not to guilt-trip myself about missing almost a week and a half..instead...i just pushed myself to get back in.

Wednesday. Nov. 2nd - Core Fusion Open w/Jeannine - taking Jeannine's class again and as always I really do love her teaching style. Its hard work, but she has such a pleasant energy. I am really starting to feel the results of my hard work up to this moment..even with a week off. During my week i enjoyed feeling the extra energy i had. And it is fun feeling my new body and the changes that it is going through. i had major anxiety before this class--similar to how it was for me in the beginning. But I pushed myself to do it and as always I feel so good about myself for accomplishing another workout! Another notch up towards my goal.

thats it. thats all i could get in.

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Sunday, Oct. 16 - 60min of kenpoX & 4min Kardashian butt workout - kenpo does it for me everytime. it helps the aggression push out of me and put it into physicality. My weight loss journey is turning a corner now. We started off well but now we are in the meat of things. Pushing myself to keep going and avoid a plateau, focusing on my eating habits, and bringing up the emotional settings that make me overeat in the first place. this is where i am now..and its gonna get bumpy. thanks to kenpox..i can drain myself of the heavy energy.

Monday, Oct. 17 - 50min of Core Fusion Cardio - Yes. This class was hard as hell! but it was just the workout I needed. Cardio workouts are by far harder for me to get through.. but its what I need. two so far this week..gooo goo team!

Thursday, Oct. 20 - 50min of YogaX & 4min Kardashian butt workout - i've noticed about myself that it is always hard to get back into a workout after 2 days of rest. i think it would be best for me on this journey to keep it to a day of rest and get back in on the next day. Yoga was hard, but not as hard as last time. I feel I am getting stronger. i've only been able to do about 45min of it. Today I did 50..next time i'll keep it to 50 or try to bump it to 55min. Kardashian workout..is always hard..but i can feel that i am stronger than the 1st time i ever tried it.

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Monday, Oct. 10 60 min of P90X Back & Biceps - This was the perfect workout for a day like today. I am tired from an early morning shift and feeling slightly sluggish. I really am fighting to push myself just to get up and do the workout, but i did. It wasn't as challenging because I don't have the right tools, I need to get heavier weights and different resistance bands. This was by far the least challenging workout I have done btw. Here are my stats from the workout..whenever i do p90x strength, I will be writing down my stats from now on...its good to do this to see how your progress is going. (pull ups on resistance - 10, lawnmowers - 5lb weights 16 reps too light, biceps - 21 reps 5lb weights too light, cross body biceps - resistance 15 reps, outside lawnmover - 15 reps, standing biceps -15 reps resistance)

Tuesday, Oct. 11 60min Core Fusion with Jeannine - this class was hard. I was not happy with myself cause i felt so tired I couldn't concentrate on the gluteal set, which is my favorite section. i think this might simply be a lack of nutrition and energy. must continue to get better with my eating.

Saturday, Oct. 15, 30min of Core Fusion Boot Camp - I missed out again on my 4th workout. But its alright. i'm feeling great about my ability to keep going. This is when these workout logs really work for me.. because i HAVE to hold myself accountable. this workout had me drenched in sweat..even for a 30min workout. yessss

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Tuesday, Oct. 4th - Core Fusion Open Class w/Karen - good workout. The gluteal workout with Karen literally kicked my ass. I def have to take her class just because i haven't had that much work in my butt before and thats what i'm looking for!!

Thursday, Oct. 6th - 20min of arms and stretching with cf dvd. I have been going to my mother's house and working out with my sis and mom. However, they weren't in the mood for a full workout so we just covered some arm work. its hard to motivate people and get my workout in too. Gotta make sure that even if others aren't willing to fight, it won't pull me out of what i need to do. Cause i am still in the beginning of my own journey.

Saturday, Oct. 8th - 60min of mix of core fusion dvds. I was feeling a little down about not getting in my workouts this week. The last two weeks have been a bit of a drag pushing myself beyond what I have been doing. I think this is the point where I can fall off, get bored and go back to doing nothing. So I am proud of myself for forcing myself to do this workout today. Yesterday was my 1st life coaching session. I am getting the help that i need to go stay the course. I believe in myself that i CAN get this weight off. Today, I did a mix of the core fusion bootcamp dvd and thighs and glutes work. I did sweat out a lot. I actually feel accomplished that i pushed myself to end the week off right. I am feeling positive about continuing my fitness journey.

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Tuesday 9.27 30min of Mix it Up! From the Slim in 6 series - yeh today I was aching to get into a workout cause i had not worked out for 3 days!! yikes. I could feel the exhiliration from finally getting in the workout but i just could not concentrate. My mind was focused on other things.. how dirty my house was, the fact that my legs were itching..lol, and just insecurity upon insecurity. i find that when i have days that i don't work out.. my insecurities start to grow and grow making me unable to focus on my tasks and present moment. going 3 days without working out showed how incredibly strong my insecurities can grow. I am so focused on my big belly right now and all i'm thinking is... this workout can't fix this belly of mines! ...Similar to how i was feeling when I first started working out on a regular basis. This weightloss journey is hard. It reminds me to be patient with myself and to really just stay the course. However, I could not fight off the deep horrible feelings that were plaguing me today. I hope tomorrow will be a better day.

Wednesday 9.28 30min of CF Cardio dvd/30min of CF Thighs & Glutes - I feel like i've been taking it easy this week. The cardio dvd was hard but i COULD only do 30min of it. And i was able to squeeze in a lower body workout at the end of the day. But, i didn't feel like i challenged myself enough.

Thursday 9.29 60min Core Fusion Open Class - I took barbara's class. Her class was good and i really felt my upper thighs working. I also tried a few push-ups on straight legs instead of just on the thighs and I surprised myself that i could do a few! I still have a lower-back issue when we do standing gluteal work. I think its a mix of weak muscles and bad technique so i've gotta work on it.

Saturday 10.1 60min Kenpox and 4min butt workout - I love love love kenpox. it is always hard for me to get into the workout at first cause i dread cardio. But once we get to the kicks..i'm so focused and kicking ass. I could only get in 30min today cause i have to get on with my day. I also added the 4min kim kardashian butt workout. My bf wants me to do these everyday...i'll try but this workout for 4min is hard as hell!! But..i gotta that booty right. nah mean? lol!--> I actually got in another 30min of Kenpo at night...go me!

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Sunday, 9.18 - 60min of KenpoX - I actually did this workout with the bf and it was sooo much fun! The time flew by. I really love this workout. It helps me to get my aggression out and it is so much fun with the more you sweat. Sometimes I imagine I am an action hero kicking ass. This day, I imagined a lady who caused much havoc in my dreams. No literally, she was a person from my dreams who came in and took my man!lolz I guess you can call it a nightmare. Well I sure did lay the smackdown on her!...(in my head of course). Call me weird but shit...I was worked out after using that as motivation.

Tuesday, 9.20 - 60min of Core Fusion Sport! - Heyyy, i'm getting in that cardio! Who knew? I had a tough tough time getting myself motivated for this class. In fact, i don't think motivation ever came to greet me until after the class was over. But, I got through it. I am realizing now how hard it is to keep going. Sometimes you really have to just show up.

Wednesday, 9.21 - 60min of Core Fusion Basic - This was Tyler's class. And next to Catherine's class he is by far my favorite. He diversifies the moves and so it keeps me intrigued and going. He focuses on posture and stretching and it makes me feel better about the body that i am shaping. A lot of the other teachers would just force you through the movements, but he does not. He really focuses in the body alignment. It was a tough class but I felt like I really got a fantastic workout. I feel the differences that are shaping in my body. I want to get back into yoga and cardio classes because i REALLY liked how it shaped my arms. The core fusion workouts seem to plump them up more. I prefer the results that i got from yoga.

--- look at me! I am able to really compare exercises and I can shape my workouts to get the exact body shape that i desire. i'm feeling really good about myself. go team go!

Saturday, 9.24 - 60min of YogaX

-Next week is my last week of exercising before i do another check-in. i am hoping to really come out on top with my performance. I am proud of myself because i'm doing this. every week when I blog, I am impressed with myself. So many years I've talked about what i am going to do. These days, I do it and then talk about it. what a difference!

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9.12 50min Core Fusion Open w/Jeannine - it was a 2 day hiatus of no exercise. So today was much needed. I still felt the anxiety before taking class. But there is nothing like that feeling of accomplishment when class is over...

9.14 60min Core Fusion Open w/Anna - I needed this class. I saw it as pure therapy after an emotionally heavy morning. I still find myself struggling to make it through. There are many points where it feels like I just can't complete the workout. But there is no option but forward and i am now good at pushing myself to take it. One thing I noticed was that i was able to really straighten my legs during the ab work. It was cool to see that there was an improvement in that area.

9.15 40min Slim in 6 Series: Tear it up! - i was kind of bored with this workout in the beginning. the warm-ups are dull. But once you keep going, it gets realll intense. I love her lunges and lower body workouts. i ONLY did 40min, but i was drenched in sweat when I was done. I think this workout was part cardio and part toning. Will def use again.

*i didn't get to 4 workouts this week. But I didn't really set a goal of how many workouts i am aiming to do each week. i have just been finding the time to do them. So we'll see what next week looks like.

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Sunday 9.4 Core Fusion Sport - yehh man. I'm really doing this thing! Did a sport class today which incorporated 30min of cardio along with toning. Just what I need! However, I had trouble with my breathing--gotta remember to bring that pump in with me especially when I do cardio.

*How I feel today is another story. I find myself struggling with being present. Just wishing to get done with work and down to what I want to do. I am trying to not feel trapped in the middle of work and this weight loss journey. I easily fall into the "lets analyze myself in the mirror time" and find very unhappy things about myself. I dont want to run away from the mirror. But sometimes looking at myself is painful. I think its something I need to address for the rest of this week.

Tuesday 9.6 - 60min Core Fusion Open Class - yep. I had to exercise after the weekend that I had. Its been a very dramatic few days..and I needed this workout in order to feel strong. It wasn't about trying to look good..it was about getting my mental to be stronger to face the discomforting situation that is currently happening in my life and to my family. I walked out of class desiring to do more. I was craving an even more "kick-my-ass" workout.

Wednesday 9.7 - 60min of P90X (KenpoX) - last night was so draining for me. I craved to just sweat it out and thats what this workout did for me. i'm finding the benefits of working out are way beyond just the shallow needs of looking good. Working out is pure therapy.

Friday 9.9 - 60min of Core Fusion Open Class - today I took Tammy's class and she is by far the hardest i've taken. I love her gluteal work too. I am proud of myself for really stepping up to the plate and finding times and ways for me to get my workouts in. I'm reaching for the gold.

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Tuesday 7.19 - 25min of core fusion cardio - back on track and looking at my fitness regimen in a different way. I'm not at all swayed by my 2 week hiatus..i'm just happy that i'm back in the game.

** yeah well then i had about a 3 week hiatus***


Tuesday 8.30 - 60min of Core Fusion Open Class - back again and feeling inspired but realizing that it is important to recognize the benefits of my fitness routine for today. This class has helped my posture and my self-confidence for today. This class was extremely hard for me. I had felt my anxiety before the class building b/c i was dreading the pain. So these are things that i have to work on...expecially anxiety.

Wednesday 8.31 - 40min of CardioX - this workout was the bomb. I absolutely love this dvd and I always forget how much i love having tony horton in my living room training me. I love this workout because i have the control to make it harder or easier on myself. It def helped my soreness from yesterday. And My lungs got a great workout which is important for the singing that I will be doing today. go me!

Thursday 9.1 - 60min of Core Fusion Open Class - the universe invited me into class today and I gladly accepted..even though it was unexpected it actually worked out really well. I had a great teacher, ms. hesse. she was motivating and I found that I was very present with my body. I like the variety of moves and lots of stretching that she incorporates. If I am looking for a workout that I know I'll enjoy till the end..now I know ms. hesse is my girl.

Saturday 9.3 - 60min of Core Fusion Open Class - today I was tired and not looking forward to working out. I wonder if I ever will be actually looking forward to taking these classes...lol.

*this week was a good one. I feel like I did fall of..but i got right in the flow of things. I am hoping for another great week of workouts ahead!

Change & Adapt

My workout routine is going to have to change and adjust for this week. I really wanted to get in my workouts but i have two interferences that I just cannot ignore.

Firstly, i've got my period. Normally any girl with her period could do the workouts but mine is irregular and when it comes it is very heavy and I can have really bad pain..

even worse..

Secondly, my asthma pump is out! It just ran out today and I wasn't expecting that to happen. It is really difficult for me to do anything without my pump. If I can't breathe I really can't do anything. So it will all have to wait.. hopefully i can get a couple of workouts in..but i don't know.

This means I have to focus on my eating and i will put off my weigh-in and measurements for one more week. :)

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Wednesday 6.29 - 40min Core Fusion Basic Class -- finally got my butt into a workout this week! i was worried i was gonna fall off.. but here I am doing it. Now motivated to keep going for it..time for cardio workouts now. Gotta do them..cause cardio is essential at this time. :) go me

Thursday 6.30 - 30min PlyometricsX -- don't need no motivation. just pressed play and pushed myself right through. I am starting to recognize how exercising in my day.. puts my happiness and contentment in my days up a notch. I feel like I did something great for myself even though it was hard to get through. makes me more motivated to apply this to other parts of my life.

Saturday 7.2 - 40min of YogaX - i so needed this. And wow do I just love doing Yoga..its my fav exercise right now cause its perfect for me. I have such a restless mind and Yoga requires me to stay in the moment and pay attention to my body.

I was able to bump up most of my workouts to 40min. But, making my goal of 4 workouts a week wasn't successful this week. This is mainly because i took too long in the week to get started. Beginning the workout sessions on Wednesday... i tried to squeeze everything in..but Friday i got too tired. I was very close to not even making it..but i had to push myself on Wednesday to make it happen. Once i start the workout sessions..i GET inspired..but its starting that is always the hardest part.

This week I am going to aim to start earlier, aim for 4 workouts, and get all sessions to 40min. (keeping cardio as prominent--meaning half or more than half of the workouts.)

This Week I will also be doing my measurements and 1st weigh-in since i began this new method of logging weekly workouts.

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*Can't stop admiring my arms!*

My arms are getting definition in my triceps and shoulders!

its kinda cool!!

6.21 Tuesday - 30min of Core Fusion Cardio. I again was feeling the lull. But i went to my "inspire me" label. And then got right out and poppin! I really like this dvd because it is hard but doable. i was sweating a whole lot even after 30min! So proud of myself.. i used inspiration beforehand and used reward afterhand. i like taking the time to pamper myself after a workout..it makes the whole experience so rejuvenating!


6.22 Wednesday - 20min of Core Fusion Thighs&Glutes. I was prepping for wearing short shorts to a performance and thought a good workout for my legs would give me an extra boost of confidence.


6.23 Thursday - 35min of KENPO X. I pushed myself today and it felt great! last week this workout wasn't working for me.. but today I pushed through the hump! go me!


i am happy with myself because I did what I said I was gonna do..making cardio more of a focus on my routines. So far I haven't seen any inches or lbs lost, however the results are showing in my arms, my muscles are looking more defined these days..which gives me a little inspiration to keep it moving! Next week i'd like to do another official weigh-in and measurement to see where I am standing. This week I will be focusing on adding a 4th routine. Keeping the cardio as prominent, but I'd like to bump it up to 4 workouts a week. Let the games begin!!

Here's to another week of Focused Fitness!

Last Week's Workout-Log

Last Week's Workouts.

Sun/6.12
30min of YogaX- been about 2 weeks since I worked out..so this was hard to get back into, but once i got into the routine I was feeling great. Afterwards i felt long and limber. Nice to be back on track!


Mon/6.13
20min of KenpoX- today my mind wasn't in it. I just keep having so many thoughts about what i WANT to do, and couldn't focus on my workout. Tired, been up since 5:30am and i'm feeling drained and uninspired. Even though last week's lesson for me was WILL, I am not feeling the will power tonight. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.


Thurs/6.16
30min of YogaX- i decided i wanted to do yoga, but i wasn't feeling inspired. For me.. pushing myself to my fitness routines are going to require for me to be inspired. So i went and hit my "inspire me" label and watched some videos. did my yoga..and off to complete the rest of my day. Building my wall of prosperity.. one brick at a time.. :)


MY RECAP: Despite some setbacks, I am proud of me for pushing myself even when I really didn't want to. I have found that Yoga is a great workout for me cause it rejuvenates my mind and my body.

THIS WEEK: I will focus on more cardio.